From Burning midnight oil to burnt out

Sometimes, it is just hard to get motivated. I have been the same for years now. As motivation has drained out from my soul, I look at the piling works and projects that I am supposed to do, but haven't done. I know it won’t take me few minutes, hours or days, but yet I lose this battle of doing it. Perhaps, I am succumbing to the fact that nothing excites me. Not that the reward system of my brains are not rewarded, but it is hard to explain why I feel the way I feel right now.

Dreams and Hopes - Ambitions!

 "What do you want to become when you grow up? You have to think, and draw a picture and bring it tomorrow morning. You have to draw a picture of a person you want to become when you grow up. If you want to be a lawyer, you have to draw a lawyer or doctor or teacher or Dasho or anyone. Okay Class?"

"Okay Madam!", all shouted. It was Class III C, and in one of those moments, when everybody shouted out their lungs, and for a while, when there was vacuum of silence : I shouted : Engineer! I will draw an engineer. 

Stories from Here and There: verses of Hocus Pocus! - Epi - I

 Stories from Here and There: verses of Hocus Pocus!

  Episode I : Lama

 We are all bound by the stories that we have lived and the stories that we tend to tell, stories we cherish and the stories we try to forget, stories that boost our morals, stories that make us hopeless, stories that we were told once adeptly, that we follow the myths and mythologies in it – some stories are our very basis of existence. Our fallacies of beliefs into stories, explain the extend of our religiousness.

The Civil Servant - The Twenty Five minutes of Approval!

It was 12:30 pm, that I had to rush towards the Dzong, Tashichoe Dzong! 

I brisk walked thinking that soon it will be lunch break and I have had bad experiences about coinciding with lunch breaks at government offices. I thought, let me just drop my letter and leave. 

Should we Moonlight?

 The heights by great men reached and kept were not attained by sudden flight, but they, while their companions slept, were toiling upward in the night.

            Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.

The median age of Bhutan is interestingly 25 to 29, while the rest of the world might see it as a boon, back home, it has ironically become a problematic scenario. Youth Unemployment has soared up to its zenith pinnacle in her history, some being unemployed for more than two years. 

My little journey into the world of art.

 Let anyone win something, they will come with their struggling stories. Lend your ears to them, everybody will glorify their sadness and everyone’s just the same, when they try to narrate their stories differently. Of lately, folks watch melodramas or motivational talks, and try to sermonize the world, without experiencing anything. You cannot talk about shitting bricks from your rectum, unless you actually have. You cannot preach about the subjects which you haven’t learned and practiced. You cannot tell the tales of finding solaces in melancholy, unless you have gone hungry for weeks yourself. I narrate this story, not to please the eyes of those who wish to speculate to hear a success story or this is not my life’s valedictorian moment, this is as it is, as the journey unveils something, a narration from a juncture  – this is merely penning down of moments and memories, so that in distant future, I too want to come back here, read it, remember and then perhaps, if situation merits then, must I smile.

To let go:

Some memories despite your reticence and expostulation, can consume you from within, like termites. While the battle is constant to erase, it pops up in your head, deludes and derails you from your daily routines or patterns that you have achieved. Perhaps, there lies a problem in our upbringing, we were told that we were special and once you were an over achiever over a quantum of time, you tend to think so – that with the high status that you have maintained for yourself, the saddle you climbed that needs to be let gone, is painfully excruciating: be it to your pride, be it to your wellbeing.